This week is just difficult, spent last Christmas in hospital bedside, watching my dad die slowly until he passed Boxing day morning.
Got crappy news yesterday that seems to have dashed all hopes of escaping this crackhead community in which we live in fear daily and are threatened in our own home, my kids will suffer this trauma for life and its all my fault for not having the means to escape.
All I dream of is property with no neighbours, peace and quiet to grow food to share with others who need it, to show others via free workshops how to grow food, preserve food, grow and make natural medicines.
My mental health has never been this bad, recent experience of being threatened with a knife by junkie neighbour has stirred up my ptsd that I have had mostly under control for the last 8 years (from an abusive relationship I was in since I was 15).
Why does it all come down to money?!
I feel like a complete failure and have lost all hope.
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Praying you will get your hope back! It seems that before the birth of something great, there is great pain. So, be encouraged, dear Awake Elf... And I am so sorry about your dad... He is praying for you from up in Heaven and is also with you somehow still... God bless and strengthen you and give you His kind of peace that confounds all understanding ... and the kind that walks you out of bad situations and into your beautiful destiny ahead! So, don't give up! You've come this far, just a little while longer... 🙏❤️ Jesus is with you...
Thank you for your prayers 💚 it means so much that people care about me, a complete stranger the other side of the world...thats what gives me hope.
I am trying hard to focus on my dream, it has to happen soon as this place is destroying me.
"Have courage and be kind." I love God & all His creation, history, and holistic living. Live with purpose. Let's see what Jesus unfolds!
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