I AM an optimist. I AM here for our children. Following Q since the first drop. I Trust the Plan. #Family is Everything. #LOVE wins.
The process of detachment - necessary to survive the emotional/spiritual attacks from those closest to my heart - has led me to a place of solitude and present moment awareness.
No longer do I plan for a personal future, create dreams, imagine my life here with family... I simply cannot see further anymore, nor do I seem to want to, nor do they seem to want me.
This has been replaced by a deeper feeling / pull... out, away, far, far away... where all this finally ends. I Am not the same as I was.
I feel sad letting go... of the life I held dear without the knowledge of what will replace the habit of those old dreams, of certain certainties I believed in that comforted....all been stripped away.
I have work to do along side with you all, but after we have fulfilled our calling, I feel I simply don't belong here/anywhere anymore.
Nothing fits.
Wow. You put into words how I have been feeling the past 4 years. The things I have seen through digging has marred my spirit to the point that it is difficult for me remember the matrix version of myself. It is the amount and level of evil that has been revealed to me right in our midst. It is the revelation through hours upon hours of personal research and then the rejection from those that I love who are still that old version of who I used to be. It's the red pill curse. It is the duality of realizing that knowing what I know will make it easier for me when their world ends in the near future as the reality of the sleeping converges with the reality of those awake while simultaneously longing for their temporary ignorance to the horror of their situation in the present. The more people I am around, the more I lonely I feel. I guess ignorance really can be bliss.
The Matrix (1999) Ignorance is Bliss - YouTube
One of the many philosophical points presented in 1999 film, The Matrix. In particular, this scene contributes this line to be discussed - Ignorance is Bliss.
