Fucking hell.. none of this shit is gonna happen, please stop this. There are real problems you need to worry about like getting off the streets. I wouldn't be surprised if these theories are playing off of this mess for political gain, you're probably being brainwashed. Please stop playing into it. Rick is dead, God isn't gonna 'awaken' anyone, nobody is gonna be saved and its unlikely that every celebrity is a pineal gland sucking demon. Shit happens and trying to find justification and escapism in this shit isn't gonna fix the past. I know you regret things and some things hurt too much but this is it. You had a kid and a future and you fucked it up to run off to fantasyland and try to re-write things you just can't fix. This is all bullshit please just get your life back together and try to fix the mess you left behind. Snap out of it.