It helps for me to think of God ss a spoiled brat.The kind of kid who leaves his toys out in the rain and forgets to feed the cat.
It's not a popular deity, i admit, but it seems to fit my experience with a higher power.

Therefore, just as you have received Yeshua The Messiah Our Lord, walk in him, Strengthening your roots while you are being built up in him, and you are being established in that faith which you have learned, in which may you abound with thanksgiving.

Beware lest any man rob you by philosophy, or by empty deception, according to the teaching of men and according to the principles of the world and not according to The Messiah, For all The Fullness of The Deity dwells in him bodily. And you also are completed in him, who is The Head of all Principalities and Powers. And you are circumcised in him by circumcision that is without hands, in the putting off of the body of sins by the circumcision of The Messiah. And you were buried with him in baptism, and in it you arose with him, because you believed in the power of God who raised him from among the dead. And you, who had died by your sins and by the uncircumcision in your flesh, he has given you life with him and has forgiven us all ou

God knows, sees, and controls everything.

A big burden to bear , to love the world so that he gave his only begotten son to be given the most horrific death in human history.