I can’t presume to tell you what to do. All I know is that God never works against us, even if it might seem that way. Some of my most difficult and frustrating times have been when I thought for sure I knew what needed to happen in my life, but, God had other plans — All I can offer is talk to God, ask Him to show you his will for you and how to get there. It really is true that He never sends us more than than we can handle. He just doesn’t always make it clear what in the **** we need to do to get where He wants and needs us to go. Been there so many times. Take it one step at a time, and keep talking to Him, yell at Him if you have to — He can take it, and if you keep talking, listening, and seeking, eventually you may just have an aha moment, when you least expect it. Good luck and God bless. Praying for you.