Joey! so glad you shared your feelings so we all could send love to you! Some in my family have walked away from me, too. I hope you know that your family is on their own path, and that you are on yours. We will all be happy together eventually. I think of your walls as a place for you to hang images of things that make you happy! It helps me to focus on the present..meditate or listen to mysic that makes you feel good. Sending love to you, Joey! Hope you keep updating here!